DENIED.. again.. *sigh*

Well, I have managed to get through the past few days without crying every second. Wednesday was one of those days... my friend Marc helped out a lot. And so did dance class. I learned tango. Dr. Love did finally call. It was a good call. Basically he said that he hadn't got his grade yet.. so didn't know if we would be seeing each other Friday night (now tonight), but he would probably know on Thursday (yesterday) and call to let me know. Well.. to my chagrin.. no call. I got through this anxious period of waiting by going drinking with my girlfriends and dancing. I broke down and texted him this morning " Hey hotstuff, just wanted to know if you had any updates on whats up for tonight. Hit me up when you aren't busy".... its been hours and no reply. I guess I can be happy for this. I am not the kind of girl that is good in long distance relationships, or relationships where I don't get a lot of attention. He is not capable of this, and it would cause me a lot of unneeded anxiety. Though on the phone on Wednesday, he did say that he was already looking at how to get reservations for this resort by my house. I asked why and he said cause he is coming back to see me. I said " I thought I was coming to you" to which he replied " oh no, you are goin to come see me in like less than a month right?". Wrong. Blowing smoke up my ass just like I thought. I hate guys and their lies I swear. I would rather someone just tell me to f off you know? Anyway, I am taking it a lot better than I thought I would. I may just relax and read tonight. It is too damn hot to do anything else!!!! So long, Dr. Love, you left me with a fixed shoulder, a non-infected toe cut , and a good memory.