What about your friends?

Last summer I had a slew of friends... I was never without anything to do, or no one to spend time with. My son is with his father. I COULD call any one of my friends, but I am kinda of weirded out by it. I have shut them out for so long, so they would not have to endure the crap I just went through. They are angry with me and annoyed. But I was going through a lot. My one friend.... my new BFF at the time.. has found 2 other 'groupies', I like to call them. No doubt they have plans today, and I dont want involved or I'll feel jealous. I wish my boyfriend would come home already.